Well as I start to write this, I have no clue what I am going to write. Nothing New about that, I have lots of thoughts & opinions in me that I have a hard time verbalizing or expressing. There is always SOMEBODY, that has an opion or idea about the things I say, are wrong. Just flat out wrong.
I do not like to argue, I have given that up. Whats the point?
Arguing breeds anger & hostilities, anf that get frustrating. It escalates and gets really ugly. I have learned within my immediate family, 3 sisters and 1 brother that it get us nowhere by arguing with each other. I do have one of my sisters that is the “Perfect person” if ya don’t live within the guidelines that she thinks you should live in, your history. Oh she will speak to you, but with the facade face, which is her trademarke. Description: Smiling face, happy & cheerful attitude, not a thing wrong in her life because all is perfect. (just dont piss her off.
Another Sister is a true Con-artist, & lives in a fantasy world, pretty much all of her life has been lived in her self created fantasy world. The word “Grandios” has been used to describe her actions, and beliefs for her fantasy life. Can’t say much more with out giving away all details I have, that could be tru or untrue. Most of the stuff I have in re: is Lies, by Liz.
I can fight like a crazy bitch tazmanian spaz taz with another sister, but it dosent last long. Never really goes past an hour even. There are subjects we disagree on, so we agree not to talk about them. My brother, hmm, I can’t really remeber every really having an heated argument with, but if we have I am sure it didn’t last long.
Me, Ha, What a freaking basket case, but a complete Survivor, of all that has gone wrong with my life. Most of the krap and I do mean krap, that I have gone through & done in my life I take full responsibility for. I don’t need anybody to tell me what a screwed up person I am and have been.
If I get angry at someone, I don’t hold on to it for very long. It is a different story if I get a feeling about someone that is kind of eww, ?? I keep my distance. I will also keep my distance from a liar. I can feel in my gut when someone is lying. Probably because I used to lie alot in my career as a drinking alcoholic. At this point in my life I am not drinking alcohol of any kind. I am just me being me. While drinking I had been hospitalized too many times to count, or that I want to admit to. But a few of the Hospital Visits, I almost didn’t live through. Thank god I did. I guess I was meant to stick around here and do something I have not done yet. And here I am. Go figure.
I have alot to be grateful for, yet I think , umm, I mean I do harbour resentments. Which can be dangerous and get me into trouble with myself and the folks I care about.
Note to self, write out what my resentments are…
Maybe I should do this writing stuff more. After all who is going to read dumb stuff like this? :l
Okay its not dumb to me 
